I was reading some inspiration quotes and this one really stood out to me.
I don’t know where I’ll be 10 years from now, but I always envision a life I would want- working my dream job, living in my own home, and having a family. It’s scary thinking about the future because you never know what’s going to happen or you’re so set on the ideal life you want to live that sometimes you don’t enjoy everything in front of you. It’s easy to get carried away wishful thinking, and it’s something I catch myself doing which can be a good and bad thing. It can be a good thing because it motivates me to work hard, but it can also be a bad thing because I can get impatient with myself and compare my life to other peoples’- that’s a big no no.
I’m going to be very vulnerable in this post because I wanted to reflect on some things in a different light. I recently wrote a blog post talking about my plans and what I will be doing for my career, but I didn’t go too in depth. I feel like sometimes we put on this facade that we have our sh*t together when really, we’re panicking on the inside. That’s something I left out in my other post. Although I’m excited to graduate and start my career, I’m scared sh*tless. I feel like sometimes we’re ashamed or embarrassed to share that part of ourselves because everyone else around us seems so successful. Well, I’m speaking for myself, but if you’re feeling the same way I am, you’re not alone! This blog post is for you.
I had this whole plan to major in marketing and go on to work in the fashion/beauty industry. Obviously, that didn’t go as planned because I ended up majoring in information systems and going into the tech division of the accounting industry. Super big difference. Sometimes I question if I made the right decision. I’m not saying I regret anything, I’m just saying I didn’t end up where I initially planned to be, and that’s where the quote comes in, “The journey isn’t planned, nor is it meant to be. Be patient with yourselves.” I still want to be in the corporate fashion or beauty industry, but that will have to wait. I’m a firm believer in the saying, “Everything is as it should be.” My mom would always say that to me- and it’s true! There was a reason I changed to information systems and it was because I enjoyed the content better in my classes. There was a reason I accepted my full time offer with my current company. It was because I liked the people and I believed I could grow with the firm. Everything happens for a reason. It’s not going to be an easy and smooth ride getting to your ideal/dream job, and if it is, good for you!! That’s always nice to hear! BUT if you aren’t exactly where you want to be right now, that’s ok as well. Everyone’s success comes at different times and it’s something I tell myself over and over. I’m not going to lie, I still compare myself to others, but I’ve been trying to deal with my inner demons because at the end of the day, I’m my own enemy!
Regarding a different point in my last post, living at home, that’s something else I get impatient with. Of course that’s not my first choice because I would LOVE to be able to buy my own house right after college… but c’mon. Realistically, no normal college student is able to buy their own house right after graduation. Living at home was the smartest choice because I’d be able to save money for a down payment for a mortgage. Adult talk. Crazy. I want to save money to buy a house because I feel like I would be wasting money if I was renting monthly. That’s money I could be saving towards my own house! These are some of the small things I’m talking about. I get carried away thinking of what I want in the future that I don’t focus on the now, and what I could be doing to develop personally at this current moment. Think of the future in a way that will motivate you to work hard to get where you want to be, but don’t get too carried away to where wishful thinking consumes you. I hope this makes sense. I’m just trying to say it’s okay to want more, do more, and be more- but don’t lose yourself in the process.
I just wanted to share this because I think it’s something many people go through at times. What I do to overcome this is honestly focusing on myself and trying NOT to compare myself to others. I remind myself to focus on what’s in front of me, learn and grow along the way, and to be patient with myself. Work hard and everything will fall into place.
Everything is as it should be.
